Kambo 2

It was and 11am start which is ridiculously early for me, due to unhealthy habits its rare I get up before midday so getting up early and travelling to a part of London I don’t know was hard work, I got my two litres of water which was a lot to carry and got lost finding the venue. Very lost intact. I felt stressed and exhausted and not ready for an ‘ordeal.’ The lady holding space seemed lovely as did the three other women who would be partaking in the medicine. I felt scared, we did an opening circle and some breathing exercises but to be honest I found it really hard to feel centred, to feel grounded. I felt nervous and stressed and a bit angry.. perhaps its because I had pmt. But I wasn’t feeling good and was looking forward to it been over. I am a skeptical person and although everything I had read about Kambo was that its very beneficial for your health I couldn’t help but worry it would make things worse, I have had such low energy for weeks now and felt really very unwell.   I felt slightly socially awkward, I think because I was skeptical and couldn’t relax into it, but I had committed to been there and decided I was going to do it, there was no backing out now. When it came to my turn three little holes were burned into my right ankle, I squealed even though it wasn’t very painful, I was feeling very sensitive. One drop of medicine was put on, the pain was excruciating, I...

Kambo

I have drank ayahuasca before and found the medicine to be incredibly healing, infant I did three ceremonies very close together. When I first heard someone talk about Kambo I thought it sounded awful, it was when I was in thailand, where they showed me scars of where they had been burned with a hot wooden stick and had frog venom put into the wounds. It sounded terrifying and from my perspective far more extreme than Ayascha.   Ayahuasca was healing and transformational in such a big way for me, it really helped me face pain and patterns and then let go. I have been feeling the need for a similar ceremony for a while, travelling I felt amazing, but my patterns in London life leave me feeling stagnant and unhealthy. Physically and mentally, I find London life my habits become unhealthy, I focus on work, drinking, unhealthy food, unhealthy substances. Whereas when I travel I am very much in the moment, and very much focused on eating good healing foods, doing physical things with my body such as yoga and of course relaxing in the sun. I find whenever I am in a place where I have to make money my habits change pretty quickly, I drink too much coffee, and tea and even take amphetamines as I feel so exhausted I need that extra energy boost. I smoke too much weed in the evening, and occasionally have a valium to help me relax. Whilst back in London get caught up in unhealthy patterns with my ex partner, we end up seeing each other in someway but not really committing...

PandoraSpa

This week I had my first experience of the PandoraSpa, Todd and Skylar were people who I really wanted to meet, as I think the work they do is amazing, so I decided to go and experience this incredible Spa they have created and meet them at the same time My first impressions were that the spa is absolutely beautiful, there is a real feeling of peace and tranquility from the moment I entered the space, although it is in the heart of London it feels quiet secluded and peaceful, a real escape from the urban city. Todd and Ladrhyn were there and invited me to sit on the large comfortable sofa and drink some water, they explained the programmes to me in detail, I felt excited and eager to try it, the space is set up to create comfort, it is a real space for the customers to relax and let go and just be, it is a minimalist space creating, a fresh clean feeling, but also comfort and warmth from the soft furnishings and lovely people running the space. The room for the Pandora spa experience is a beautiful clean set up, with beds, and machines, the beds are super comfy and adjustable, everything felt fresh and clean, and almost had a sciencey feel, I got the impression that the people who created this space and done a lot of research on the mind. The first programme they put me on was one called Acid squirrel, it was visual, brilliant, fun. I saw beautiful geometric shapes, the music was great and I felt high. After coming off...

Why I think bdsm healing is powerful!

1. It brings you into the present moment 2. It can unblock energetic blockages, enabling you to be able to receive pleasure as my friend metaphorically said its like pouring drain cleaner down a drain to allow things to flow more easily. 3. It allows total surrender 4. It is a space for meditation and becoming more clear 5. It can lead to cathartic release 6. Can help you realize your strength 7. The endorphin release can make you feel amazing (and its natural) 8. Can make your more able to receive loving touch 9. It is a way of letting go 10. It can change thought patterns from negative to positive!   If anyone else wants to share how bdsm healing has been powerful for them please leave comments below.   Much love...

The Guardian Interview

I just thought I would add to the blog my guardian interview on 50 shades of grey. It was a very honest interview, to be honest I forgot I was been recorded, but I was pretty saddened by the film, its really not an accurate portrayal of what I believe bdsm can be.  ...

My Urban Tantric Temple.

Last weekend I went on a course called Urban Tantra, it got me thinking about all the ‘Urban Tantric’ experiences I have had in the city, and there have been so many. So many unexpected moments where the energy suddenly soars and I have let go of everything and become lost in the cosmos or some other dimension in absolute bliss. After thinking for sometime I realized I have a special magic Tantric temple which I visit from time to time. The energy of the place seems to have changed a bit lately, but  I certainly used to go to regularly and I have had so many incredible times there. I am going to describe it without naming it, mainly because I don’t want to write a review and I don’t have consent from the people who own the place, I just want to describe what it is, and some of the experiences I have had there. Its in central London, and open almost 24 hours, it attracts people from all different cultures, backgrounds and many parts of society. When people go in they take off their clothes. Which I think is a wonderful way of breaking down the boundaries between us, without our clothes I think we lose a lot of our constructed identity and by doing this it creates an atmosphere, where  it is more easy for people to connect, and let go of judgements.  It is a naked sauna but it doesn’t just attract the people looking for quick hook ups and sex, although that is also an option there, it has a garden and outside...